This is Home

May 23, 2008 at 8:30 am (europe, movies, relationships)
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Bittersweet happenings this week:::::::::::::

I made my first beans that didn’t taste like dirt. I also went to the Ukraine for a while and watched the border patrol posture around waiting for quick bribes. We also have a monumentous occasion. A visa appointment for Vincent on Tuesday. But this requires an American sponsor and invitations obtained in 4 days time. So we are scrambling about and I am contacting friends and family. This is a very dangerous task. I have been displaced in Europe too long and am searching for my spot in this world- my world- back home in America.

When given the opportunity to contribute anything in an urgent situation- time, money, resources, small things such as an e-mail or endorsement, who can you count on to rise to the occasion and come though for you?

Well my search ended with me not having parents any more. Not having sisters anymore, not having those I hoped were my friends- anymore. The one saving grace that I am sooooooooo immensely proud of is my son David. He has all my respect for sponsoring his mother and new step-father to obtain a visa and come to the states. Check out his page and his videos:

http://www.myspace.com/fearofthegreatmolerat

So I lost may people this week. But I learned much about the quality of my son’s character, and gained a sudden reconnection to an old friend I thought was lost. I wait for her response, not holding my breath, but inhaling slightly with a glimmer of hope.

Another gift was the new Switchfoot video for Chronicles of Narnia, Prince Caspian- This is Home. I have played it out. It details my heart and I can’t get enough. Watch it here, and try not to cry:

This is home

To all the immigrants who yearn for a better life, a place of rest, a chance to feel wanted and safe:

This is home
Now I’m finally
Where I belong
Where I belong
Yeah, this is home
I’ve been searching
For a place of my own
Now I’ve found it
Maybe this is home
Yeah, this is home

And now after all
My searching
After all my questions
I’m gonna call it home
I got a brand new mindset
I can finally see
The sunset
I’m gonna call it homeI

This is home

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Where Have all the Good Friends Gone?

May 7, 2008 at 1:46 pm (relationships)
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I don’t know about you, but sometimes I regret not having friends. It’s not so important, I suppose, but now that I am getting older, having someone to bounce things, ideas, dreams, silly notions off of would be …Nice.

The closest I get to feeling friendship is playing chess.  Moving the pieces around, having them interact together. But in real life- I can’t find anyone. You see, I’m a little eccentric. Traveled in Europe, raised some kids, did some funny things, and I still have grand visions in my life. People tend to settle and be happy with what they’ve got. But I’m not.  I’d like to open a small mosaic Gallery, live somewhere near enough to the beach- maybe a coastal town. I want to be out of Europe with a desperation- but can’t see a way out unless I take a loan from the U.S. Embassy.  But location is a temporary problem. I am not afraid of new starts. Actually they are refreshing… But finding a good friend- well thats almost an impossibility.

I think  the term “good friend” is maybe a myth.  How many people can you count on when the going gets rough? Or just when you need to talk? Or when you need a little true advice that knocks you down but picks you up at the same time? They say to have a friend- you must be one first.  I haven’t taken the time to be one. Pure and simple.  But for sure it’s time to try.

If you are reading this today and you have a good friend…….then thank your lucky stars. You are truly one of the few!

kklh

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